A Cross-Border Memoir
Author(s): Jean Guerrero
Original Publish Date: Jul 17, 2018
eAudio - unabridged
Audio (12.10 hours)
Product Number: Z100131199
Released: Jul 17, 2018
Business Term: Purchase
ISBN: #9780525531296
Narrator/s: Jean Guerrero
Publisher: Books on Tape
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A daughter's quest to understand her charismatic and troubled father, an immigrant who crosses borders both real and illusory—between sanity and madness, science and spirituality, life and death Winner of the PEN/FUSION Emerging Writers Prize Throughout Jean Guerrero's childhood, her father, Marco Antonio, was an erratic and elusive presence. A self-taught genius at fixing, creating, and conjuring things—and capable of transforming himself into a shaman, dreamcaster, or animal whisperer in his enchanted daughter's eyes—he gradually began to lose himself in his peculiar obsessions, careening wildly between reality and hallucination. In time, he fled his family and responsibilities—to Asia, Europe, and eventually back to Mexico. He succumbed to drug- and alcohol-fueled manias, while suffering the effects of what he said were CIA mind-control experiments. As soon as she was old enough, Jean set out after him. Now a journalist, she used the tools of her trade, hoping to find answers to the questions he left behind. In this lyrical, haunting memoir, Jean Guerrero tries to locate the border between truth and fantasy as she searches for explanations for her father's behavior. Refusing to accept an alleged schizophrenia diagnosis at face value, she takes Marco Antonio's dark paranoia seriously and investigates all his wildest claims. She crisscrosses the Mexican-American border to unearth the stories of cousins and grandparents and discovers a chain of fabulists and mystics in her lineage, going back to her great-great-grandmother, a clairvoyant curandera who was paid to summon spirits from the afterlife. As she delves deeper and deeper into her family's shadowy past, Jean begins mirroring her father's self-destructive behavior. She risks death on her adventures, imperiling everything in her journey to redeem her father from the underworld of his delusions. In the tradition of engrossing family memoirs like The Liar's Club and The Glass Castle, Crux is both a riveting adventure story and a profoundly original exploration of the human psyche, the mysteries of our most intimate relationships—and ourselves. Featuring music by Russell Holsapple. Advance praise for Crux "Crux is everything I want in a memoir: prose that dazzles and cuts, insights hard-won and achingly named, and a plot that kept me up at night, breathlessly turning pages. Jean Guerrero has a poet's lyrical sense, a journalist's dogged devotion to truth, and a fast and far-reaching mind."—Melissa Febos, author of Whip Smart and Abandon Me

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Author(s): Jean Guerrero
Product Number EB00714503
Released: Jul 17, 2018
Business Term: 2 Year
Publisher: One World
ISBN: #9780399592409

Professional reviews

"This audiobook succeeds because the author's performance is as powerful and emotionally driven as the story she tells. Guerrero's father, Marco Antonio, a Mexican immigrant, was an enigmatic presence. At times a genius, at times unstable, he was an erratic and elusive person whose brilliance was interrupted by numerous demons, including alcohol, drugs, and mental illness. Through it all, Guerrero never lost hope that she would discover why her father was so plagued. Guerrero superbly tells the story of her journey to understand her father, and in the process she crosses borders both real and imaginary. While it takes a chapter or two to adjust to her delivery, the result is captivating and feels like you are on the same compelling quest as the author. D.J.S. © AudioFile 2018, Portland, Maine"

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