In the Water They Can't See You Cry

A Memoir
CD - unabridged
Audio (7 discs)
Product Number: DD20366
Released: Apr 16, 2012
Business Term: Purchase
ISBN: #9781452607245
Narrator/s: Tavia Gilbert
Publisher: Tantor Media, Inc
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At the tender age of fourteen, Amanda Beard walked onto the pool deck at the Atlanta Olympics carrying her teddy bear, Harold, and left with two silvers and a gold medal. She competed in three more Olympic games, winning a total of seven medals, and enjoyed a lucrative modeling career on the side. At one point, she was the most downloaded female athlete on the Internet.Yet despite her astonishing career and sex-symbol status, Amanda felt unworthy of all her success. Unaware that she was suffering from clinical depression, she hid the pain beneath a megawatt smile. With no other outlet for her feelings besides the pool, Amanda expressed her emotions through self-destructive behavior. In her late teens and twenties, she became bulimic, abused drugs and alcohol, and started cutting herself.Her low self-esteem led to toxic relationships with high-profile men in the sports world. No one, not even her own parents and friends, knew about the turmoil she was going through. Only when she met her future husband, who discovered her cutting herself, did Amanda realize she needed help.Through her renewed faith in herself; the love of her family; and finally the birth of her baby boy, Blaise, Amanda has transformed her life. In this book, she speaks frankly about her struggles with depression, the pressures to be thin, and the unhealthy relationships she confused for love. In the Water They Can't See You Cry is a raw, compelling story of a woman who gained the strength to live as bravely out of the water as she did in it.


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In the Water They Can't See You Cry
Product Number: BX00040203
Product Number:Z100028916
Product Number:DD20366

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Narrator(s): Tavia Gilbert
Product Number Z100028916
Released: Apr 16, 2012
Business Term: Purchase
Publisher: Tantor Media, Inc
ISBN: #9781452627243
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"Olympic Medalist Amanda Beard shares her journey as a celebrity athlete who struggled between stardom and her private life. The swimmer candidly shares her story, addressing her parents' divorce, her boyfriend problems, and her struggle with dyslexia and bulimia, along with other unhealthy habits she had throughout her early career. Narrator Tavia Gilbert sounds totally credible as Beard and brings out her competitive personality. Gilbert successfully projects the different voices of Beard's coach, her father, and her boyfriend, allowing the listener to empathize with Beard's feelings at various points throughout her life. Gilbert's performance conveys that Beard is not only an Olympian but also a human being who faces choices everyday and has highs and lows just like the rest of us. D.Z. (c) AudioFile 2012, Portland, Maine"

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