Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me

Depression in the First Person
Product Number: EB00764453
Released: Mar 31, 2020
Business Term: Purchase
ISBN: #9781615196739
Publisher: The Experiment
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In her early 20s, Anna Mehler Paperny-having just landed her dream job as an investigative journalist, and with a loving family and a strong social network-nevertheless found herself spiraling into despair. A suicide attempt landed her in the intensive care unit, after her bosses found her passed out in her apartment having ingested a deadly mix of sleeping pills and antifreeze. Many more suicide attempts followed in subsequent years. Following the dictum "know thine enemy," Anna set out to meet and interview those on the frontline of treatments. While also trying to be a good patient, Anna turned her investigative journalist's eye on the world around her-in the psych ward; as an outpatient; as a survivor, enduring the grueling ordeal of facing concerned family, friends, and coworkers; finding the right meds and therapist; and staying insured and employed. In search of answers, she interviewed leading medical experts-from psychiatrists to neurologists, brain-mapping pioneers to family practitioners-and others dabbling in strange hypotheses. Cured or not, she discovered the truth of her condition in online depression-testing and the far frontiers of brain mapping-as well as the disturbing truth about how primitive our methods remain for healing sick brains. With courageous honesty and uncommon eloquence, Paperny's stunning memoir chronicles her firsthand experience of depression and her intrepid quest to explore what we know (and don't know) about the disease, while providing an invaluable guide to a health-care system struggling-and too often failing-to provide solutions. As fascinating as it is heartrending, as humorous as it is serious, it is a must-read for anyone touched by depression.

Author(s): Anna Mehler Paperny
Original Publish Date: Mar 31, 2020

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